Uncertain Path

I'm scared if I did something wrong

If the road I'll be taking lead me to wrong path

Regretting when its already too late

All My Prayer

All my prayers and dua's goes to the people of Gaza in Palestine.

May Allah SWT blessed all the syahid citizen the highest paradise.

Al-Fatihah

Storm Inside

...and the sky is clear but will it rain in the evening since its already storm inside my heart.

Revamp and Clean up

Going through some major clean up for spam comment and old entries. Had been abandoning this blog for years. My last entries dated back in June 1 2010 and I've been busy with my working life as Graphic Designer ever since. I have been particularly concern about my lack of writing and reading English material that had been affecting my ability to write in proper grammar. Even my vocabulary had shrinked into small pebbles and this worries me. I hope with the revival of this blog I can continue writing like I use to.

The Sail of Red

...and the sea rocking smooth

and the white ship sail in full glory

where our feeling and mind unite

regardless of our differences

to help others in dire need

we brought you hope

we brought you life

we brought you care

we brought you love

we brought you future

and yet everything seems

becoming more difficult to us

a devil bird snatch away those dream

snatch away our good intention

rain us with bullets

drench us with our comrade blood

violating every humanitarian law

they can violated us

they can call us whatever they want

and yet we will never step back

wait for us our beloved brothers and sisters

the whole world will listen

the whole world will see

the whole world will unite

and the whole world will judge

and we all know God always on our side...

Amen

...

Shuun

Sun of the sea

...and as I told you before

the dream I had last night

I wish you were there with me

so we could walk together

and you will embrace me

watching the sunset smiling

disappearing behind the horizon

the sky turn dark orange

yet the blue still can be seen

but my ocean

my sea of dream remain cyanic blue

glowing in the depth of twilight

I wish you were there

as if our thought connected

I wish...

...

Shuun

You're My Ritual

...and there's no different
between you and the other guys
at least physically from the surface
while the other might sound friendly
your deep and whispering voice still echoed
while the other guys start to run for the flower
you keep your walking pace steady
locking your view to what you desire most
while the others showing of their talent
your sincere smile wins hands down
its like a drug, a cocaine
an ecstasy toward people mind
please smile more dear black horse
smile more for me...

...

Shuun

Thine Heart

...and I walk across a river of silent
where the time stop flowing
but the rippling sound of water still echoing
and I breathing cold chilly air
with my nostril burn with cold blue flame
and my palm full with blister and cuts
but no red blood to be found
and I see my hand vein protruding under the skin
but no life flowing inside it
and my heart stop beating long ago
but why the sound of it continuous beating still visible
for such a long time I had blinded my eyes
but why whenever you appear
everything seem so bright
I try to forget the past history about us
but its haunting my mind in the present
I have throw away my feeling for you
but it came back with an intoxicated force
that makes me cry
do you also feel the same...

...

Shuun

Hello there

...and I turn on the radio
start tuning from one channel
to another one slowly
listening to distorted music and DJ voice
each time the tune in process
thousand of song dedication
the DJ try to fulfill every request
and makes them happy no matter what
I still continue searching
for any interesting broadcast
"Hello there..."
that simple word of greet from the DJ
makes me pause my action
I have found the station that I'm looking for
"Hello Mr.DJ...how are you today?"
and the music start rolling...

...

Shuun

Its winter

...and the chilling air start to blow
from the north hemisphere
as you walk along the sideways
gazing the night winter sky
its dark and cloudy
but the star still shines like always
you continue your walk
bypassing people that enjoy the night
suddenly you realize a white thing
falling from the sky
its snow, its start snowing
all the people seem delighted
and the kids running and jumping around
it is so wonderful right...

...

Shuun

A Son Dreams

...and one peaceful night
a young father
talk to his 6 years old son
he ask him what is his dream
the son smile gently
and look to his father eyes
"I want to be like you, daddy"
the father in awe
surprise by the answer
he caress his son hair tenderly
"So you want to be different just like me, sweety?"
his son give him a cute nod
"Because you're different, that makes you my only beloved father"
the answer really touch the young father heart
tears flows down his cheeks
he hug his son tightly
and kisses the child forehead
"Thank you...thank you"
"I love you daddy"
"I love you too, sweety"

...

Shuun

Like Tonight

...and life start again
at the sky the star start twinkling again
crescent moon smile again too
with tenderly and smooth shine
but something is missing
only thing missing here is you
you must be faraway by now
take off on your own journey
the future you have decide
maybe while you wander your path
try look at the distant star
just so you know that
if you ever wish to return back
return to my heart
you can do so
I'll be waiting for you
I'll be here for you
just like tonight...

...

Shuun

Lost Fragment

...and you think the world is not beautiful
so you can be the most perfect being
but everything is not born perfect
same goes to you
there is a little fragment
pulled out from your self
and left floating in the sea of experience
it will forever be there till the time come
when you start walking with your two feet
seeking for life fulfillment and self revelation
where the journey is not just an ordinary journey
journey of human understanding
journey of world exploration
journey to see how beautiful to be imperfect
and the day will come
and you will found that lost fragment
so that you can end the journey
to rest and remember back
those valuable memories
you had gather throughout your journey
and the fragment is your proof...

...

Shuun

A Fresh New Morning

...and I woke up every morning
with no sunshine and cloudy sky
with rain pouring down to the ground
with melodious drops
the earth flora celebrate with joy
and the endless cold breeze
that feel so fresh yet
send chill to the bone
feeling that I forever love
no need for bright smiling sun
no need for clear blue sky
no need for bird chirping happily
I love the way it is for now
peaceful and private
just like the time stopped it self
just for me and only me
to taste the new morning
everyday and every second of it...

...

Shuun

The Truth

...and I say to you one word
the word is "Truth"
I want to hear it from you
all the things that you keep away
from my ears and my eyes
it might hurt me deeply
but I have prepare emotionally
to listen for whatever words
that's going to become signal
and being decode inside
this small space inside my mind
what to filter and what not
until the "Truth" resurface
from the bottom of unconscious thought
that brings me to realization...

...

Shuun

Sorry for Rejection

...and the first rejection
sorry can we be friend for now
its going to hurt
but please understand
time goes by and the second rejection
sorry I already have someone
someone that I really love
though its only a lie
but please understand
the third rejection approaching
sorry I'm afraid I can't love you
the way you want me to
because it will end up with no love
from my side because I'm different
my heart is not for you
I'm sorry really sorry
please understand...

...

Shuun

The Hand

...and if I have a chance
I want to hold those hand again
hand that work so hard
hand that endure endless pain
hand that show sincerity
hand that emitted warmness
even if the hand turn out rough
worn out from over-working
not the most beautiful hand
I still want to hold it
hold it dearly and close to the heart
to remember you as a person
a person that I fell for
if only time will brought us together again
and I will hold those hand of yours
again without hesitate...

...

Shuun

Bitter Sweet

...and the chocolate taste sweet
as long as a person can remember
yet one day it turn out a bit bitter
and become even bitter
when time passes by
a person ask him self
why...why it turn out astringent
there's no answer for it
yet this person still continue eating it
despite of the taste
why...why can't this person stop eating
because he remember
forever remember
how sweetness taste like
for what his memory had experience
the flavor will never cease...

...

Shuun

The Warm Hand

...and I saw you
walk into the building
searching for space
searching for room
continue my walking pace
till I found my legroom
where I stand and look up front
where people adjusting
for their own comfort
out of many places
I saw you there
stand still right beside of me
watching the horizon
our eyes meet
and we shakes hand
its warm, your hands are warm
and I said to my self
such a nice and gentle person
as for the hand already revealed
so much of inner human traits...

...

Shuun

Unbearable

...and holding back the piling anger
won't help the situation any longer
one day it will explode
and its already happen
everything is wrong but it feels right
for standing up for your own reason
though it feels like going to break
into thousand pieces
at least the heart is at ease
and you no longer a weak person
and fragile...

...

Shuun