Breaking glass

...and this miserable feeling I have
not knowing where to put, what to do
it is because of your words
words that shattered glasses
into million of tiny fragments
what am I to you
just a lifeless doll
dancing in front of your emotionless eyes
without showing any sign of interest
I was hoping that you saw me thorough
and yet that eyes look a away
breaking more glasses as it walk its own path
leaving me stranded alone lifeless
so it was the end...

...

Shuun

Sun of the sea

...and as I told you before

the dream I had last night

I wish you were there with me

so we could walk together

and you will embrace me

watching the sunset smiling

disappearing behind the horizon

the sky turn dark orange

yet the blue still can be seen

but my ocean

my sea of dream remain cyanic blue

glowing in the depth of twilight

I wish you were there

as if our thought connected

I wish...

...

Shuun

Black Circle

...and the representation of a genuine human
from the way he or she act as a living being
your face is in pain...are you hurt somewhere?
yes I'm hurt but not physically
is there anyway that I can reduce the pain?
here, please understand my heart
please decode the heartbeat rhythm into words
please tell me the only thing I want to hear
I don't understand what you're saying
I know you don't dear kind stranger
no one ever knows...

...

Shuun

You're My Ritual

...and there's no different
between you and the other guys
at least physically from the surface
while the other might sound friendly
your deep and whispering voice still echoed
while the other guys start to run for the flower
you keep your walking pace steady
locking your view to what you desire most
while the others showing of their talent
your sincere smile wins hands down
its like a drug, a cocaine
an ecstasy toward people mind
please smile more dear black horse
smile more for me...

...

Shuun

Thine Heart

...and I walk across a river of silent
where the time stop flowing
but the rippling sound of water still echoing
and I breathing cold chilly air
with my nostril burn with cold blue flame
and my palm full with blister and cuts
but no red blood to be found
and I see my hand vein protruding under the skin
but no life flowing inside it
and my heart stop beating long ago
but why the sound of it continuous beating still visible
for such a long time I had blinded my eyes
but why whenever you appear
everything seem so bright
I try to forget the past history about us
but its haunting my mind in the present
I have throw away my feeling for you
but it came back with an intoxicated force
that makes me cry
do you also feel the same...

...

Shuun

Hello there

...and I turn on the radio
start tuning from one channel
to another one slowly
listening to distorted music and DJ voice
each time the tune in process
thousand of song dedication
the DJ try to fulfill every request
and makes them happy no matter what
I still continue searching
for any interesting broadcast
"Hello there..."
that simple word of greet from the DJ
makes me pause my action
I have found the station that I'm looking for
"Hello Mr.DJ...how are you today?"
and the music start rolling...

...

Shuun

Its winter

...and the chilling air start to blow
from the north hemisphere
as you walk along the sideways
gazing the night winter sky
its dark and cloudy
but the star still shines like always
you continue your walk
bypassing people that enjoy the night
suddenly you realize a white thing
falling from the sky
its snow, its start snowing
all the people seem delighted
and the kids running and jumping around
it is so wonderful right...

...

Shuun

A Son Dreams

...and one peaceful night
a young father
talk to his 6 years old son
he ask him what is his dream
the son smile gently
and look to his father eyes
"I want to be like you, daddy"
the father in awe
surprise by the answer
he caress his son hair tenderly
"So you want to be different just like me, sweety?"
his son give him a cute nod
"Because you're different, that makes you my only beloved father"
the answer really touch the young father heart
tears flows down his cheeks
he hug his son tightly
and kisses the child forehead
"Thank you...thank you"
"I love you daddy"
"I love you too, sweety"

...

Shuun

Like Tonight

...and life start again
at the sky the star start twinkling again
crescent moon smile again too
with tenderly and smooth shine
but something is missing
only thing missing here is you
you must be faraway by now
take off on your own journey
the future you have decide
maybe while you wander your path
try look at the distant star
just so you know that
if you ever wish to return back
return to my heart
you can do so
I'll be waiting for you
I'll be here for you
just like tonight...

...

Shuun

Lost Fragment

...and you think the world is not beautiful
so you can be the most perfect being
but everything is not born perfect
same goes to you
there is a little fragment
pulled out from your self
and left floating in the sea of experience
it will forever be there till the time come
when you start walking with your two feet
seeking for life fulfillment and self revelation
where the journey is not just an ordinary journey
journey of human understanding
journey of world exploration
journey to see how beautiful to be imperfect
and the day will come
and you will found that lost fragment
so that you can end the journey
to rest and remember back
those valuable memories
you had gather throughout your journey
and the fragment is your proof...

...

Shuun

A Fresh New Morning

...and I woke up every morning
with no sunshine and cloudy sky
with rain pouring down to the ground
with melodious drops
the earth flora celebrate with joy
and the endless cold breeze
that feel so fresh yet
send chill to the bone
feeling that I forever love
no need for bright smiling sun
no need for clear blue sky
no need for bird chirping happily
I love the way it is for now
peaceful and private
just like the time stopped it self
just for me and only me
to taste the new morning
everyday and every second of it...

...

Shuun

The Truth

...and I say to you one word
the word is "Truth"
I want to hear it from you
all the things that you keep away
from my ears and my eyes
it might hurt me deeply
but I have prepare emotionally
to listen for whatever words
that's going to become signal
and being decode inside
this small space inside my mind
what to filter and what not
until the "Truth" resurface
from the bottom of unconscious thought
that brings me to realization...

...

Shuun

Sorry for Rejection

...and the first rejection
sorry can we be friend for now
its going to hurt
but please understand
time goes by and the second rejection
sorry I already have someone
someone that I really love
though its only a lie
but please understand
the third rejection approaching
sorry I'm afraid I can't love you
the way you want me to
because it will end up with no love
from my side because I'm different
my heart is not for you
I'm sorry really sorry
please understand...

...

Shuun

The Hand

...and if I have a chance
I want to hold those hand again
hand that work so hard
hand that endure endless pain
hand that show sincerity
hand that emitted warmness
even if the hand turn out rough
worn out from over-working
not the most beautiful hand
I still want to hold it
hold it dearly and close to the heart
to remember you as a person
a person that I fell for
if only time will brought us together again
and I will hold those hand of yours
again without hesitate...

...

Shuun

Bitter Sweet

...and the chocolate taste sweet
as long as a person can remember
yet one day it turn out a bit bitter
and become even bitter
when time passes by
a person ask him self
why...why it turn out astringent
there's no answer for it
yet this person still continue eating it
despite of the taste
why...why can't this person stop eating
because he remember
forever remember
how sweetness taste like
for what his memory had experience
the flavor will never cease...

...

Shuun

The Warm Hand

...and I saw you
walk into the building
searching for space
searching for room
continue my walking pace
till I found my legroom
where I stand and look up front
where people adjusting
for their own comfort
out of many places
I saw you there
stand still right beside of me
watching the horizon
our eyes meet
and we shakes hand
its warm, your hands are warm
and I said to my self
such a nice and gentle person
as for the hand already revealed
so much of inner human traits...

...

Shuun

Unbearable

...and holding back the piling anger
won't help the situation any longer
one day it will explode
and its already happen
everything is wrong but it feels right
for standing up for your own reason
though it feels like going to break
into thousand pieces
at least the heart is at ease
and you no longer a weak person
and fragile...

...

Shuun

No Words

...and if he keeps silence
doesn't mean that his mad
nor he's pleased either
by putting hand on his forehead
doesn't mean he's very deep in thought
nor he's spacing out either
if his eyes doesn't gleam
doesn't mean he's a cold person
nor he's veiling his true nature
he just doesn't have anything to say
or words to speak
so he continue to be silence...

...

Shuun

Red and Blue trinkets

...and we hold a red jewel
that we keep it near to the heart
we call it feeling or sensation
inside our mind there is a blue crystal
that we use it to feel what others experience
we call it empathy or compassion
we wear both trinkets for it purpose
seeing someone experience happiness
we feel happy too
because we know how joyful the feeling are
seeing someone smile
we smile intuitively
because we know how a smile can elevate the mood
seeing someone cry in grief
we soaked our eyes with tears
because we know its an unbearable pain
seeing someone in his peaceful moment
we feel such ease and calmness
life has granted such aptitude
so we can understand others
and experience it as well
as part of being human...

...

Shuun

Mysterious voice

...and I sing a song
alone in a wet blue room
with water pouring down
sound of water dripping
and flowing like
unstoppable time stream
"...sometimes, somewhere..."
I sang it with hushed voice
each words being spoken clearly
under one breathe
and a voice
mysterious voice yet enchanting
continue the part where I've stop
"...we need not hide our feelings..."
who are you o mysterious voice
and I never receive the answer...

...

Shuun