Antara Dua

Dulunya aku tak pernah mengerti
Apa itu kumbang
Dan apa itu bunga
Hubungan antara dua
Sering menjadi perumpamaan lama

Pabila meningkat dewasa
Dikala ilmu itu dikejar memenuhi dada
Aku sedar dan penglihatan ku terbuka
Aku hidup di kelilingi oleh kumbang
11 tahun perjalanan hidupku begitu
Dimanakah bunga?

Bunga hanya sebahagian kecil
Tidak terdetikkah untuk mengenali?
Aku tak pernah punya jawapan
Sang kumbang yang buta terhadap bunga
Tapi benarkah begitu?

Aku adalah kumbang itu
Terbang mengikut aliran kumbang lain
Tiada hinggapnya di hamparan bunga
Mengapa?
Tidak punya jawapan
Tapi diriku tak mahu menipu
Seekor kumbang lain menjadi perhatianku

Semakin dewasa ini
Semakin mekar bunga bercambah di sekitarku
Dari sebiji benih yang indah
Tapi sang kumbang sudah tiada terbang lagi
Merangkak di atas tanah
Di antara bunga
Membisu menahan pilu

Kumbang itu sudah menemui bunga

Aku redha
Aku punya pendirian
Aku tahu laluanku selami ini penuh dengan onak
Sayapku bergetar
Sekali lagi angin menjadi sahabat
Membawaku mengenali bunga - bunga yang indah
Kumbang ini mula menerima bunga
Tedetik seketika
Aku menipu diri sendiri?
Aku tak mengerti

Kini, kumbang itu masih berterbangan
Di antara hamparan bunga-bunga
Menunggu suatu hari
Haruman sekuntum bunga
Mampu membuka pintu hatinya

Tapi...
Perjalanan hidup tak semestinya harum sentiasa
Sang kumbang memahaminya
Mengetahui ianya tak pernah lurus

*Sorry saper yg raser nak muntah pas bacer. Jarang wat entry camnie...*

Shuun

Still...

I can't find a way to have a good sleep
Tired my self and even stressed out my finger with drawing...lots of it
Still its not the subject to put me into deep sleep
Why? Is it because my nerve system become more reckless recently?
Its does look like it...but doesn't feels like it
Perfectly fine..or am I?
Or might be this some of the symptom of sleeping disorder?
Work more...sleep less?
Too tired even just to close these pity pair of eyeballs and swam into temporary nirvana?
Need my weekend
I want to be isolated in pitch black room
Discriminated
Ignored...
Just want to sleep

Shuun

Lifeless...

Doesn't had a goodnight sleep last night
I'd dream, many kind of dream... that I can't really figure out what
But I'm quite sure one of it I had blister and cuts all over my right hand palm
Painful...sure, and painless nonetheless...
I kept one waking searching for my hand phone looking at the clock
It still night, and night...and night...
Now its morning...
Its feels weird, or rather annoying...
I'm not so motivated to look forward on anything right now
Not classes, or subject or anything relate to it
Feel agitated...
Need my space, a dark empty room, soundless to be alone
Hearing my breathe and heartbeat
I'm not sure

Shuun

Start and End

Final Delta year, 3rd trimester, most important time for us Digital Media and others FCMers. Happy? Yeah...kinda. Eventho this is not my official semester coz I still got Photography need to be taken right after Trimester 3 end, it still feels sad, not to mention to increasing tension of FYP. So, probably this gonna the last trimester I will be able to meet my beloved Digital Media classmates, or should I say junior. Its been a wonderful time this 3 years of study in DM class with everyone. This gonna be our last time seeing each other, struggling, supporting each other...this final 4 month. Do our best this final trimester. DM-ians are the best and we gonna prove it.

Shuun