Distant Ray

...and at the end of the day

the only thing that I ever wish for

just your happiness and life fulfillment

your dream and ambition

it may seem like my motivation

had been torn apart by my own decision

but looking at your smile

I saw a small glimmer of distant light

far over the horizon of my heart

painfully beautiful and calming

as I know it is not the end

of our relationship

it just transforming into something

that worth keeping for eternity

and you know it

Quit Trying

...and I've tried my best to fight those feeling

those longing, desire, tempting, even lust

it's an endless inner conflict and struggle

war that I know I can't win in the long run

how badly I wanted my feeling to reach you

yet this unrequited love are no more then self greed

self possession over something or someone

but heart is not something you can easily acquire

I've known that much

and it hurts way too much for oneself to bare

even at the verge of crumbling

please, enlighten me

gave me a sign, any sign, black or white

put my heart at ease

Swell

...and this heart is still swelling and throbbing

old scar is still bleeding

a smile and a laugh are what accompany me now 

but you the only one that motivate me 

to feel that love still exist after so much failure 

even the seriousness of your expression 

its still the most beautiful thing to see everyday 

hope it will forever stay 

at least inside this swelling heart 

for it the only way to heal

Shaken Soul

...and we both know the truth

our heart shaken and longing

for something call love

in the purest and honest form

the closeness makes us intimate

the distance makes us glimpse

for each other presence

we talk, we walk, we whisper

heart to heart

silence and sound of foot step

soft blow of midnight wind

proof that this feeling is true

for us

Zen Be At Peace

...and your struggle is my struggle too

for once we try to change the course of our action

but our path is full of circumstances

we climb we fall we broke we heal

and another world echo its zen

a ripple of peace and tranquility

as we sit and breathe

focusing what life meant to be

conflict and conflict no more

but struggle what make us stronger

total together of body and mind

and we be at peace

Stealing Glances

...and there's always an occasion

where we purposely act 

or just begin an impromptu conversation

just to have our eyes meet

staring each other even for the briefest moment

or stealing glances when one of us is not looking

or just a silent meaningful long eye gazing

without any word to put life into it

but enough to heal this longing heart

this desire to be a person that means something to someone

and to be love, and fall in love

Hand of Reality

...and we slept and dreamt

of beauty and ugly

black and white

love and hope

grief and despair

yet reality will push me back

us back to world of living

where bitter truth

is better than sweet lies

Rare Chances

... and sometimes I'll let chances slipped

for it better to maintain than to break

Sometimes chances come in the most perfect time and setting

yet it always the heart that tremble and weak

Sometimes its better for the heart to know

than for the word to lie

Sometimes silence is always the best way

to convey what your heart felt

Maybe, it's just me chasing the shadow

Am I right ...?