Sunday, April 20, 2014

Distant Ray

...and at the end of the day
the only thing that I ever wish for
just your happiness and life fulfillment
your dream and ambition
it may seem like my motivation
had been torn apart by my own decision
but looking at your smile
I saw a small glimmer of distant light
far over the horizon of my heart
painfully beautiful and calming
as I know it is not the end
of our relationship
it just transforming into something
that worth keeping for eternity
and you know it

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Quit Trying

...and I've tried my best to fight those feeling
those longing, desire, tempting, even lust
it's an endless inner conflict and struggle
war that I know I can't win in the long run
how badly I wanted my feeling to reach you
yet this unrequited love are no more then self greed
self possession over something or someone
but heart is not something you can easily acquire
I've known that much
and it hurts way too much for oneself to bare
even at the verge of crumbling
please, enlighten me
gave me a sign, any sign, black or white
put my heart at ease

Sunday, March 2, 2014


...and this heart is still swelling and throbbing
old scar is still bleeding
a smile and a laugh are what accompany me now 
but you the only one that motivate me 
to feel that love still exist after so much failure 
even the seriousness of your expression 
its still the most beautiful thing to see everyday 
hope it will forever stay 
at least inside this swelling heart 
for it the only way to heal

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Shaken Soul

...and we both know the truth
our heart shaken and longing
for something call love
in the purest and honest form
the closeness makes us intimate
the distance makes us glimpse
for each other presence
we talk, we walk, we whisper
heart to heart
silence and sound of foot step
soft blow of midnight wind
proof that this feeling is true
for us

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Zen Be At Peace

...and your struggle is my struggle too
for once we try to change the course of our action
but our path is full of circumstances
we climb we fall we broke we heal
and another world echo its zen
a ripple of peace and tranquility
as we sit and breathe
focusing what life meant to be
conflict and conflict no more
but struggle what make us stronger
total together of body and mind
and we be at peace

Friday, February 7, 2014

Stealing Glances

...and there's always an occasion
where we purposely act 
or just begin an impromptu conversation
just to have our eyes meet
staring each other even for the briefest moment
or stealing glances when one of us is not looking
or just a silent meaningful long eye gazing
without any word to put life into it
but enough to heal this longing heart
this desire to be a person that means something to someone
and to be love, and fall in love

Hand of Reality

...and we slept and dreamt
of beauty and ugly
black and white
love and hope
grief and despair
yet reality will push me back
us back to world of living
where bitter truth
is better than sweet lies

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Rare Chances

... and sometimes I'll let chances slipped
for it better to maintain than to break
Sometimes chances come in the most perfect time and setting
yet it always the heart that tremble and weak
Sometimes its better for the heart to know
than for the word to lie
Sometimes silence is always the best way
to convey what your heart felt
Maybe, it's just me chasing the shadow
Am I right ...?