Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Biler MMU jumper UIA

Haikal called me the day before asking whether I'm free yesterday coz he and his groupmates need to do some study and research on university building and architecture. They choose MMU and OSIM as their studies. So confirm everything and they arrived in MMU around 10.30a.m. Am I excited? Of course. Its been like 3 years since the last time I meet him. He doesn't change much...except for the appearance. From cute innocent boy to a young adult. I felt much more younger like seriously...eventho by month, I'm older. There are many thing I want to chat about but since this is not "borak-borak" trip, so I just do my job as tour guide around MMU covering every area and building that existed and can be seen by naked eyes. Doesn't feel any awkwardness while get together with them since we about the same age and one of them are my neighbor in JB.
So we spend like 2 hours walking, took photo around MMU compound...luckily today the sun doesn't shine with sinisterly radiance smile that will burn your skin like he use to do. I don't understand the perception of architecture student like seriously. The use a lot of critical, reasoning and logical thinking while observing the subject matter. Triple "WHY" I might say. So while they got into some discussion, I only stand aside and watch. For some reason I couldn't stop smiling.

Thanks Tiqa(beside me on the left) for treating everyone include myself those drinks and also Haikal(most right with stripes) for the Nasi Lemak Old Town that you forgot to cancel from the order list. Plus the others for the great companionship...sorry I can't remember you guys name. Maybe next time we can meet and borak-borak again.

p.s: I've known Haikal since kindergarten but befriend in Form 2.

This old entry got picture during our secondary school. See the horrific different.


Lets talk about Jalan-Jalan

Its like we spend 2-3 day straight jalan-jalan without even think bout assignment and all. Not in the mood plus I don't want to stare at the monitor from morning till dawn and extended to dusk. Its not like it gonna kiss me or anything that can heighten my libido or this unbearable lust. So I was like try not to think so much all this burdening excruciating workload. I'd planning on going back home last week, but cancel it twice mainly because there is no internet at home. I don't know what happen, my sis called and told me whether I have kept spare modem or not. Yeah...I have one backup modem in case of the current one got sex-up by lightning strike. The day after my other sis bugged me while I'm still "wet dreaming" and ask me to pay the internet bill. I was like..."ok...but let me finish the dream first...its reaching the climax". After done my business in Lalaland, I reach the mouse and open Maybank2u. Sms-ed my sis for the tm and tmnet account number. My sis called me back asking which one is which... I told her...give me both and how much should I pay. From the background sound, I can tell that even my father is confuse...hear his voice talking with both my sis. So I settled the problem by paying RM200 for line and tenet. Solve one unimportant problem.

Last Friday I, Mek Yah(Tasha) and Ezreen go to Alamanda for Karaoke-ing, Cinema-ing and Makan-ing. So we spending like 1/4 day in Alamanda maksiat-ting till crack our voice, head and stomach. At least everyone satisfied and just let go everything from their head. We go to Alamanda around 4.00p.m.

What I called "Berendut di Zebra Crossing with Tasha Sambil Cam Whoring"

Tengah fehling tue...do not disturb
Tekan suara lg...lets hit that high notes!!

Org lain nyanyi aku cam whore la...

Ezreen letih...Tasha sambung lg..

Tasha still penuh ngan tenaga yg tak diketahui...

Gie makan kat satu restoran kat celah2 ceruk SK..luper namer dier.

Ubat urut utk pompuan gatei...tgh promotion!!

Ubat urut untuk lelaki miang...tgh promotion gak!!


Actually pas karaoke kitorang gie tgk The Day The Earth Stood Still. Citer dier tader la best maner...but because Keanu Reeves was the main actor, at least I can cuci mata. Even at the age of 44, he still hot tho. Makin tua makin ensem lak abg sorang nie( dier lom kahwin so panggil abg la...hehehe) Jennifer Connelly pon such a beautiful actress.

Quote of the day "Aku ***** ***** kau kang" Nie yg terkuar dari mulut aku biler wat silly arguing ngan Tasha kat restoran tue. Aper yg bintang2 tue...hanya aku, Ezreen ngan Tasha jer tau. Ihikk...


Monday, December 22, 2008

What just happen in class...?

Its Monday and everyone as usual not very excited in going to class plus "monday blues" diseases that infected most of people around the world. Like we had done every week, student come to class in regular time basis, not to early or late eventho the person that should come early ALWAYS LATE for an unexplained reason.

So the class start around 9.30a.m and we had some decent lecture about what we need to do for our next assignment submission. Got confuse in certain part but I tried to understand it on my own since I don't expected to get feedback that will cause further confusion. Yadda yadda...we had break at 11.00 till 11.15 a.m.

The second lecture is ok I guess but at the end of it, something really UNPREDICTABLE happen. Seriously I don't expecting it, same goes to everyone...not during our very critical time and condition. I realize that the whole class environment start to become very dark, gloomy, uncomfortable. This sudden blow up really caught everyone by surprise. Without any reason, he suddenly throw all those unmotivated words and even provoking all the student to challenge him like nobody business. By default, he got more knowledge from 20 years experience in the area compare to ours. Doesn't like the way we do our tasks and works. Ok fine...but do you really guide us properly? Do you concern about our struggle just to kept everything up to your expectation and standard? Do you motivate us to do our best just like the lecturer in Beta and Gamma use to gave? Have you ever wonder why we more comfortable in communicate with our Beta and Gamma lecturer and even asking them guidance for this final year project?

Frankly says, this is the worst trimester ever and I'm not surprise if next trimester gonna be far more terrible.


Sunday, December 21, 2008

The music within you

DO... I have decided to do something different
RE... With only a pinch of knowledge, I look forward to learn something new
MI... Just like a child, learn how to walk
FA... And began to run
SO... Stop for a while to take breathe, absorbing the nutrient
LA... I understand, I have achieve it
TI... Grab everything and embrace the warm
DO... With a newly voice of confident


Saturday, December 20, 2008


Open my eyes...
and swallowing this polluted reality...
this "unconcernity" shrouded every available spaces...
and causing me to puke all my guts
realizing nothing is understandable...


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Harel Skaat- Ahvnu

Where can you fine a good looking male artist with impressive voice, great personality, talented, very tidy and clean person. Harel Skaat is what I categorize all in one. Whatever you throw at him will sound good, despite what genre it was.

Ahvnu shows his ability to sing in Arabic tune eventho the song is in hebrew. Listen how he end the song.


Sunday, December 14, 2008

Activities in a week...

Port Dickson
Date: 11/12/2008


MGA - Malam Gemerlapan Aidiladha 2008

Venue: MMU Cyberjaya Grandhall
Date: 10/12/2008


Friday, December 12, 2008

I am mad...

Lara Fabian - Je Suis Malade

Harel Skaat - Bdidut

Nearing the point where sanity wouldn't be a right choice to rely on.


Tuesday, December 2, 2008


Time is ticking...and it will never stop.
Officially panic.


Monday, December 1, 2008

Please be with me

Once...I said to myself, life is not always beautiful.
Why? The unconscious me ask.
Count all the colours you can identify around you.
For what? Again he ask.
Life are full of colours...but not all colour are beautiful.
So? He start to become agitated.
All the colour accompliment each other whether its beautiful or not.
Your point? Trying hard to understand the phrases.
Life is not perfect without any hardship or circumstances. In this life, everything are well balance...including you and I. You are my counter part...my alter ego.
Without you, I am nothing.


Sunday, November 30, 2008

Sometime Dreams Come True

Lif'amim, Chalomot Mitgashmim

Catchy song, handsome and beautiful singer plus great voice.
Harel Moyal, Harel Skaat and Adi Cohen. Three of them are contestant from Israel singing competition(like American Idol). The first singer, Harel Moyal is the winner for second season, follows by 2nd Harel Skaat and 3rd place Adi Cohen.


Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Turn and Twist

Explain clearly...no bullshit.
This final chance wasted...the anger will be lit
Prepare for the reason you going to be hit
Everything fall...we tore it bit by bit



Monday, November 24, 2008

The Laramie Project

Matthew Shepard (Dec 1, 1976-Oct 12, 1998)

Photo: Gina Van Hoof, San Francisco 1998

Basically, this movie talk about the aftermath of the case of Matthew Shepard that die after being assault, tied to the fence outside Laramie outskirt, beaten brutally and left out in the freezing night. He was found 18 hours later by a local that thought Shepard was a scarecrow. He still breathing but in a very deep coma. Thats how his condition until he died 5 days later. The police officer that rush to the spot where Shepard was tied said she couldn't recognize him because his face was bathe with blood and the only place that seem doesn't have much blood is where his tears flow.

Theres two reason for the crime, one is robbery and another one is "Hate Crime". Its seem the later give more impact then another because Shepard was a gay. He died because being a gay person and because his an easy target. (Shepard only 5'2''...and have small build)

The film focus more on the feedback of the local people in Laramie. What they thought about the case, the 2 suspect, the affect to the small town, hate crime, the hidden truth and the late Matthew Shepard himself based on 200 interview from the local. The casting was so real that you cannot believe that this actually a film recreate based from the real story.

The story flows intelligently from one part to another. From one conversation to another. Theres something to be told in each of every second. From start till the story end.

Personal thought:
I know what I'm gonna say here will cause some issues and sensitivity. But this opinion is not solely based from what I read or watch, but more toward my own personal understanding of the issue. Most of people says to be gay/fag is wrong. Its a sin. Yes...thats correct but its only applies when involve with sex activity. Same goes for normal people, to love the opposite sex is not a sin. You only committed sin when having sex before marriage...and thats what happen to today youth. For me theres nothing wrong to LOVE someone from the same gender as long as you know the limitation. Its not a sin to love somebody, whether a male or female.

For me, as a Muslim, I put my religion above all. I've been struggling with inner conflict as long as I can remember but the only thing that kept me from commit the sin and can make my mind at ease are prayers. I ask forgiveness from God if I had committed any sin, accidentally or not. I always smile doesn't mean I'm happy. I rejected serious relationship from other people* not because I'm dry hearted, but simply because I don't want to hurts someone feeling and I don't want to be hurt back.


Saturday, November 22, 2008

Inner conflict

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

Martin Luther King

R.I.P Matthew Shepard (December 1st 1976 - October 12th 1998)

p.s: So it has affected me....


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

There's a hero lies in you

Mariah Carey - Hero
X Factor 2008

Mariah Carey - Hero
1995 (I think so)

Pity to Mariah since she struggling to sing her own song and nearly killed a song that use to be her hits in the 90's. I really hope she take some rest and start coaching back her voice. Its still there but lost the agility and the flexibility of her prime age. But even with her current voice and its limitation, people will still remember for what she has introduce and create, a benchmark in music industries, the voice thats once known to be the greatest in the world and a her career that become legend.

p.s: Mariah co-wrote her song, that what I respect her the most.


Saturday, November 15, 2008


I miss my own room back at home. I hope it still tidy like the day I going back to MMU. If not, then some one looks for trouble. Anyway...as you can see there nothing much or interesting to see inside the room except some common item. Yups...no poster, no frames on the wall, no plushies, no teddy bear(to hell with it). Only some of my manga and novel collection inside the book shelf, anime CD/DVD original and un-use boxes and bags(point on top of the cupboard). Why the lighting is orange, coz thats how I like my room to be. Ohh...by the way, I'm a very...extremely fussy went it come to my room tidiness. Seriously I can get heat up when any of family member leave behind their cloth, rubbish, foods, hair band or even books inside my room. No...I won't tolerate any excuses.."Terluper nak amik...", "Alaa...tinggal kejap jer". Its a BIG NO.

No computer table...but it feels great to sit on the floor. Familiar with the pic inside the frames? (to DM student) Hehehee~!!

Two beds but only one used(the right one). Another one is spare for UNINVITED guest. At first this was my room alone. But after my first year in MMU, my father "sumbat" another single bed causing limited spaces and the cupboard and study table being push aside(first pic). The reason, my older bro doesn't have any room to stay. He stay in the guest room all this while until when he go to college. His original room was turn into temporary store room. So guess what, I need to sleep with my bro...he smokes a lot, and I can't handle the smell, plus his not a hygienics's person and super lazy. Garghh. I had a fight with father back then and slam the door as hard as I can(luckily not broken) as sign that I'm really not satisfied with this decision. Hahaha...call me EMO...yups I'm EMO. Because I can't stay with my bro inside the same room, whenever I have semester holiday and he conquering the room, I will and prefer sleeping inside the temporary store room. At least it still have fan, AC and bathroom.

p.s: Thats my favorite sofa. <3>

Hostel room. Currently I'm live alone...and prefer it to be like this until my final year ends. I know its look "pitiful" and empty but I like it this way. Crowded room just makes my head turn around and uncomfortable. I didn't brought any sleeping pillow from home, only small pillow and small blanket that I use also as my pillow or eye cover and that good enough for me. But then, I think I will buy pillow and appropriate bed cover since I got painful back and neck this few days plus itchiness on my body.

In need of towel hanger.

Computer table...maybe yes maybe not.

Un-use double deck.

Good night everyone. Smile and happy always k.