Thursday, November 19, 2009

Hello there

...and I turn on the radio
start tuning from one channel
to another one slowly
listening to distorted music and DJ voice
each time the tune in process
thousand of song dedication
the DJ try to fulfill every request
and makes them happy no matter what
I still continue searching
for any interesting broadcast
"Hello there..."
that simple word of greet from the DJ
makes me pause my action
I have found the station that I'm looking for
"Hello are you today?"
and the music start rolling...



Sunday, November 8, 2009

Its winter

...and the chilling air start to blow
from the north hemisphere
as you walk along the sideways
gazing the night winter sky
its dark and cloudy
but the star still shines like always
you continue your walk
bypassing people that enjoy the night
suddenly you realize a white thing
falling from the sky
its snow, its start snowing
all the people seem delighted
and the kids running and jumping around
it is so wonderful right...



Thursday, October 29, 2009

A Son Dreams

...and one peaceful night
a young father
talk to his 6 years old son
he ask him what is his dream
the son smile gently
and look to his father eyes
"I want to be like you, daddy"
the father in awe
surprise by the answer
he caress his son hair tenderly
"So you want to be different just like me, sweety?"
his son give him a cute nod
"Because you're different, that makes you my only beloved father"
the answer really touch the young father heart
tears flows down his cheeks
he hug his son tightly
and kisses the child forehead
"Thank you...thank you"
"I love you daddy"
"I love you too, sweety"



Monday, October 26, 2009

Like Tonight

...and life start again
at the sky the star start twinkling again
crescent moon smile again too
with tenderly and smooth shine
but something is missing
only thing missing here is you
you must be faraway by now
take off on your own journey
the future you have decide
maybe while you wander your path
try look at the distant star
just so you know that
if you ever wish to return back
return to my heart
you can do so
I'll be waiting for you
I'll be here for you
just like tonight...



Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Lost Fragment

...and you think the world is not beautiful
so you can be the most perfect being
but everything is not born perfect
same goes to you
there is a little fragment
pulled out from your self
and left floating in the sea of experience
it will forever be there till the time come
when you start walking with your two feet
seeking for life fulfillment and self revelation
where the journey is not just an ordinary journey
journey of human understanding
journey of world exploration
journey to see how beautiful to be imperfect
and the day will come
and you will found that lost fragment
so that you can end the journey
to rest and remember back
those valuable memories
you had gather throughout your journey
and the fragment is your proof...



Tuesday, October 20, 2009

A Fresh New Morning

...and I woke up every morning
with no sunshine and cloudy sky
with rain pouring down to the ground
with melodious drops
the earth flora celebrate with joy
and the endless cold breeze
that feel so fresh yet
send chill to the bone
feeling that I forever love
no need for bright smiling sun
no need for clear blue sky
no need for bird chirping happily
I love the way it is for now
peaceful and private
just like the time stopped it self
just for me and only me
to taste the new morning
everyday and every second of it...



Monday, October 12, 2009

The Truth

...and I say to you one word
the word is "Truth"
I want to hear it from you
all the things that you keep away
from my ears and my eyes
it might hurt me deeply
but I have prepare emotionally
to listen for whatever words
that's going to become signal
and being decode inside
this small space inside my mind
what to filter and what not
until the "Truth" resurface
from the bottom of unconscious thought
that brings me to realization...



Monday, October 5, 2009

Sorry for Rejection

...and the first rejection
sorry can we be friend for now
its going to hurt
but please understand
time goes by and the second rejection
sorry I already have someone
someone that I really love
though its only a lie
but please understand
the third rejection approaching
sorry I'm afraid I can't love you
the way you want me to
because it will end up with no love
from my side because I'm different
my heart is not for you
I'm sorry really sorry
please understand...



Friday, October 2, 2009

The Hand

...and if I have a chance
I want to hold those hand again
hand that work so hard
hand that endure endless pain
hand that show sincerity
hand that emitted warmness
even if the hand turn out rough
worn out from over-working
not the most beautiful hand
I still want to hold it
hold it dearly and close to the heart
to remember you as a person
a person that I fell for
if only time will brought us together again
and I will hold those hand of yours
again without hesitate...



Thursday, October 1, 2009

Bitter Sweet

...and the chocolate taste sweet
as long as a person can remember
yet one day it turn out a bit bitter
and become even bitter
when time passes by
a person ask him self
why...why it turn out astringent
there's no answer for it
yet this person still continue eating it
despite of the taste
why...why can't this person stop eating
because he remember
forever remember
how sweetness taste like
for what his memory had experience
the flavor will never cease...



Friday, September 25, 2009

The Warm Hand

...and I saw you
walk into the building
searching for space
searching for room
continue my walking pace
till I found my legroom
where I stand and look up front
where people adjusting
for their own comfort
out of many places
I saw you there
stand still right beside of me
watching the horizon
our eyes meet
and we shakes hand
its warm, your hands are warm
and I said to my self
such a nice and gentle person
as for the hand already revealed
so much of inner human traits...



Tuesday, September 22, 2009


...and holding back the piling anger
won't help the situation any longer
one day it will explode
and its already happen
everything is wrong but it feels right
for standing up for your own reason
though it feels like going to break
into thousand pieces
at least the heart is at ease
and you no longer a weak person
and fragile...



Sunday, September 20, 2009

No Words

...and if he keeps silence
doesn't mean that his mad
nor he's pleased either
by putting hand on his forehead
doesn't mean he's very deep in thought
nor he's spacing out either
if his eyes doesn't gleam
doesn't mean he's a cold person
nor he's veiling his true nature
he just doesn't have anything to say
or words to speak
so he continue to be silence...



Friday, September 18, 2009

Red and Blue trinkets

...and we hold a red jewel
that we keep it near to the heart
we call it feeling or sensation
inside our mind there is a blue crystal
that we use it to feel what others experience
we call it empathy or compassion
we wear both trinkets for it purpose
seeing someone experience happiness
we feel happy too
because we know how joyful the feeling are
seeing someone smile
we smile intuitively
because we know how a smile can elevate the mood
seeing someone cry in grief
we soaked our eyes with tears
because we know its an unbearable pain
seeing someone in his peaceful moment
we feel such ease and calmness
life has granted such aptitude
so we can understand others
and experience it as well
as part of being human...



Thursday, September 17, 2009

Mysterious voice

...and I sing a song
alone in a wet blue room
with water pouring down
sound of water dripping
and flowing like
unstoppable time stream
"...sometimes, somewhere..."
I sang it with hushed voice
each words being spoken clearly
under one breathe
and a voice
mysterious voice yet enchanting
continue the part where I've stop
we need not hide our feelings..."

who are you o mysterious voice
and I never receive the answer...



Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Its a farewell

...and there is no goodbye
without a feeling of losing something
when the mouth become tight
and heart become numb
the eyes tearing up
and memories being played
inside one mind like an old film
brings back all those valuable emotion
the warmth of love and care
oneself will realize
and speak in silent
"I will miss you"...



Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Night stormy sea

...and so the ocean
getting rougher tonight
the colossal rain cloud
from northern hemisphere
like a gigantic white curtain
veiling an enormous creature
move rapidly with sheer energy
causing gale and windstorm on it path
lightning strike to the sea
and heaven above
roaring it voice
that shake every single soul
at the sky
on the land
and in the sea...



Unspoken sentiment

...if the mouth and voice can't really say it
does the heart able to do it on its own
if the heart aching and throbbing
so much just to let it out
does the eyes going to lie
with cheeks soaked with tears
if crying and sobbing
are the only way to pronounce it
does the mind going to be satisfied
if there is a hole inside the heart
does filling it with happiness
will make it better...



Sunday, September 13, 2009

Air and bubble the air lifted the bubble up
and the small fragile froth
try to reach the blue sky
although born with a short lifespan
nothing is much more valuable
then to fly higher
and reach the highest places...



Fruit of Millennia

...and the earth grow a single tree
the tree sprout a golden fruit
and the fruit only came out once
in a millennia
what does the fruit hold
what kind of fate it deserve
else human greed going to tainted it
or Newton will do his miracle
bring it back to the ground
and the earth grant another tree
and another golden fruit
for another millennia...



Friday, September 11, 2009

Glass chalice easily shattered into thousand pieces
when its fall to the ground
on a cold and solid rock surface
an absolutely stunning vista
diminutive shining shards fragment
sharp and piercing
like thousand of crystal diamond
waiting to be own
by a wealthy aristocrat...



Traffic head

...and the world are full of it
congested every corner of the brain
and its vein
blocking and breaking the flow
causing pretty much pandemonium
to the thought of each person
and one particular human
that stuck
in the middle...



Thursday, September 10, 2009

The tune of dream

And I sleep and dream
A very different dream
From what I always had
Its been always a silent dream
An empty endless walk
But yesterday there is no more aimless walk
I sat in the middle of nowhere
Under the violet dream sky
Humming a melody
A tune that I self compose
A sad arrangement for a lonely soul
But yet I felt happy
Even though it contradict
I kept on humming it wordlessly
Though I can't remember it now
Hoping that someday
The tune will came back to me


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

And life

...the book of life is brief
to choose an option
and to make decision
and do reflection upon it
but never regret if it going to hurt
because from it we can learn
how valuable life is
even a bad decision is not always bad
and a good decision won't stay good forever
and life always begin
whenever we start to walk
and breathe...



Tuesday, September 8, 2009


...and the pathway never being lighten
shadow of agony is hiding forever in the dark
sadness creeping on the wall of tribulation
searching for a tiny bit of happiness
it can feed on...



Monday, September 7, 2009


Can the moon smile for me tonight
Will the stars show their graceful dance
And the wind play the enchanting waltz melody
Celebrate the clear night sky
Gazing the ceiling of topless sky with naked eyes
With all the planet circling their orbit
And the sun endlessly shine the way



Sunday, September 6, 2009

White dove

Above the white cloud
Under the cerulean sky
Guided by wind of sylph
A dove fly proudly
Across the continent
Over the high mountain and vast ocean
Flapping his majestic wing
Glide through the air
Smoothly and effortlessly
Watched over the land
That mother nature had given



Saturday, September 5, 2009


As long as you love
You will still have hope
In whatever situation that may occur
Believe in the strength of your heart
The sincerity and honesty of one can hold
May one day it will reach that person
A person that will kindly response
And answer back the silent whisper
Accepting it with the sweetest smile



Wednesday, September 2, 2009


waiting somewhere patiently
among the crowd of thousand to million of people
for one special purpose
meeting his special person
that hold another half of his heart



Monday, August 31, 2009


J: Aren't you tired Shuun...of everything that had happen?
S: Yeah, really tired. But what can I I have a choice.
J: You still have me tho if need anything. I can lend you my ear...or at least my shoulder if it not too much.
S: That is why I love you J. Thanks for the comfort.
J: Love you too.



Orange sky

A child eyes watch the sunset...
Not knowing how the phenomena happen
but he can understand and appreciate
it is beautiful
it is majestic
it is magical
but he also know one thing
it is sad...
Can the sun rise and set as beautiful as today



Thursday, August 27, 2009


...and it just came out
the urge of letting it go from inside the mouth
to sing a song alone, silently...
realizing how lonely it is this life



Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Love of Siam

I'd been hesitated to watch and do review of this film for quite a while now. There's few reason behind it, but I won't write in detail. Ok first thing first, I stumble upon this film while browse through Thailand film festival site early this year(it may sound very wierd...but yes, its a habit for me to do so just to find quality film). After doing some additional research on the film back ground, I decide to give it a try.

So I downloaded the film(I doubt Malaysia gonna allow it to be screen here...), and I brace myself knowing that this film gonna hit me really hard. And it does. Its embarassing but yeah...I cry. A LOT. Its not because the film was sad, ok...its kinda sad and it had some melancholy moment, but because of what the character experience, what he longing for, what he feel toward the other person, the loneliness of being alone and not being love, putting some hope that the person he love can return back the love to him. Its also show the value of irreplacable childhood friend. I've experience it and had suffer for the passed years...thats why I cry. I'm not trying to be sissy boy here(use to be called during school), but I've thing for "childhood friend" and its "relationship".

About the acting, in my opinion Pitch potrayed Mew extremely well. I put my concentration more on his facial expression just to see how well he expressed it. Well he done very good job there. When he was happy, his face really is happy and honest, when can feel the pain, and when he cry...its heart breaking. As for Mario, he done his part equally great. Kanya potray as Ying is my favorite leading supporting actress. But overall, it was Pitch that touched me most...and he can sing and play piano brilliantly. Ohh..I must agree to what people had said that Mario and Pitch had a every good chemistry in this film.

I give this film overall rating 4.8/5

p.s: ok...I feels like crying whenever recall back certain scene in the film...*sob*



Friday, August 21, 2009

The Sixth Station

The Sixth Station - Spirited Away
Composer: Joe Hisaishi

...and the song really capture that feeling the moment the journey start. Those who had experience far distance journey by bus or train can understand how it feel. Gazing out of the window, watching the orange sky, mountain, road passed by...there really something that cannot be describe by word. Melancholy yet its not sad, lonely but we not really that alone. Its a surreal feeling, like you been transcend to another world where watching things passed by is part of your life and experience...and it become nostalgic.

p.s: Try listen this song while traveling in train...before you know it, that "feel" will instantly come.



Thursday, August 20, 2009

Night of 23

It was kinda peaceful and calm night
For the first time it does not bother much
or rather I never expect much from the beginning
so age really do some significant miracle to your brain
or is it another way round
I wonder


Sunday, August 16, 2009

Premonition of love

Inoue Yosui - Koi no Yokan

Anzen Chitai - Koi no Yokan

Well the song kinda summarize my current feeling...

p.s: love both version...


Friday, August 7, 2009

Disguise and Disgust

I'm just a devil disguise as an angel
Soon it gonna bleed deeper and I will lost my way
Without knowing the real purpose of own actions
Smile will never again conceal the fact
That I'm a bad person
Had become my natural way of living
Such a disgusting way of walking in this world
Knowing that the white feathered wing
Cannot send me fly to heaven...
Not that it ever flaps...not even once
Deep inside, I still wish for it to happen...
But, devil don't deserve such miracle
or blessed with golden bell


Friday, July 31, 2009


No...nothing. Don't have anything to do right now except thinking of creative idea for my photography assignment. For the time being, I just sitting here in front of my PC, browsing the net for anything that can make my brain cells kick their way around the membrane. Next week is midterm trimester break, and I'd plan to do some shooting around JB and Kota Tinggi...and of course alone since I need to follow my own sweet time.
I've been maintaining my body weight for month now, so its around 75kg more or less. Do some exercise regularly, became my routine nowadays since my body lack of stamina and endurance, now is the better time to increase it. And also I become addicted to HL milk. about starting drinking milk after hating it for so long. Think positive...good for your bones.

Sorry no interesting news for life is boring.

Enjoy this MTV. From Russion extremely talented composer - Igor Krutoi


Tuesday, July 21, 2009

A letter from Lara to Celine

This was taken and translated from Lara Fabian new album "Toutes les femmes en moi"

Dear Céline, "My" Dear Céline

A feeling of belonging...

Beyond that vocal family we 're part of, I want to share with you my first emotion I felt when I was 12, when I heard your voice for the very first time. I had never seen your face, however I was hearing myself in your voice... as if I had in front of me, a cousin I had never met, who would confort me whith this feeling of déjà vu, already known, almost a likeness...

I, who's a single child, I've always search for "one" best friend. That is what you've been in my secrets.

Every night, when time to sleep came, I was hiding in my bed whith my walkman on, listening to your casette I would listen over and over. " c'est mon rêve de toujours au bout des plus mauvais jours tu es là, tu es là..."

Your voice would fill my ears, and eventually I could match a face with the voice.

At dawn, I knew you by heart, each subtle singsong, I would follow note by note your musicality, your passion, sung like only your voice can give colors to the harmony...

At the annual school talent, I was 13 and I would show off covering your songs.

For lack of any instrumental, I would sing over your voice.

In order not to sound out of place, I would do the harmony, and my teenage dream would fulfill: I was singing with you , for the time of a virtual duet...

I was given a standing ovation, I made it in front of my peers in high school. Were you here to hold my hand?

And by some kind of magic, I left here to live in your country, took the Canadian nationality, and ended meeting you...too briefly...

It was my turn to try my luck....A first album, a second one, and always inspired by your great voice, I would grow up. I won't tell you the rest of the story, it doesn't matter.

However, what I'd like to tell you, is what I was never allowed to tell you. Because I would have never imagined that Love and absolute Admiration that we give to our peers, could be a weapon people are using against us...

At last...from my letter to your eyes, from my voice to your ears, I can now tell you: Yes, I admire you, indeed...

Whenever my way seemed tough, I would take from your blatant perseverance to carry on my journey... The lesson I learns from you, is that we 're going nowhere and we're becoming nothing by competing with others...but we're getting better if we look ahead to become the best of oneself.

You've been my greatest influence, my biggest emotions, the reason for most of the tears I shed...

I still dream that we are at a table, laughing at the complicity we would eventually share. Under a same sky, you'd be a star, the color of a diamond. I'd be a moon crescent, we would dance around the earth where your truly unique voice echoes again and again...

See you soon, somewhere...

p.s: I really thought Lara is very sincere with her own feeling and what she wrote was true. She being compared to Celine way too long now, start from the Eurovision, her breakthrough English album up until now. I really thought people should stop those stupid comparison. And Lara also tired of hearing all those critics bout her for imitating Celine voice, or wanna topple Celine position as the next big voice in music industries. Celine is Celine, and Lara will be Lara even if this world turns upside down. Celine voice is what she is, same goes to Lara...both are different. Only that, they both were born with the same tone voice. In my opinion, both Celine and Lara really admirer each other talent...eventho they didn't say it nor show it in the past. Celine management constraint her for doing so, and for Lara, the perception of people from inside the music industries itself. Now Lara had made it clear, I dunno whether Celine gonna do the same thing or at least reply the letter, privately.


Saturday, July 4, 2009

I Guess I Love You

Sangat susah nak jumper artis kat Malaysia nyanyi lagu Lara Fabian. Salute habis kat Misha sebab berani bawak lagu nie eventho she does look struggle, a very hard song to deliver; its Lara song we talk about, she wrote and sang it. Lara fans should know better. :D

Vocal wise, Misha have her own trademark and identity. She try to makes this song her own. She knows her voice limitation and capability, in this case that big punching voice that Lara have. But doesn't mean she's not good. Misha still among the best Malaysia female vocalist nowaday. Give around of applause to Misha Omar.

I was really really hoping to see more Malaysia artist do cover of Lara song. "Intoxicated" maybe...or the majestic and powerful "Adagio"...or the heartwrenching "Broken Vow".


Sunday, June 28, 2009

Charice Pempengco

Now that one huge voice for such small stature. I don't wanna admit, but her voice really can beat out majority of our new local singer.

p.s: David Foster as her mentor...she really gonna be a big hit for sure. *she already has...*


Saturday, June 27, 2009

Old Memories

The Girl From Tomorrow

Did anyone remember this show? I sure do and the intro music among the best during that time. More then 10 years of searching for this tv series finally found it. I forgot...or rather I really never remember the title to begin with, so its purely luck that I manage to find it in Retrojunk...*after hours of browsing of course*
Alana is beautiful and this TV series are awesome.
Those glorious days fill with awesome tv series...90s tv shows still rocks!!!


Wednesday, June 24, 2009


Who gonna be that someone?
Or rather not to be so picky bout it
Orange sky won't last for long
Blue will always coming
Shall wait till one night the breeze is cold
Nihilistic night won't be so bad
Believing that this heart would pounding again
When warmth from a person hug
Melt the icy old barrier in between


Saturday, June 20, 2009

Lay my eye

...for the last time
or if it not the last...
...I just want to remember it forever
since everything won't last for long
dream bout you every night...
...knowing I will eventually forget
when the time flow through me with no mercy... stay
always stay...
...for me to love
and for you to return my feeling...
...even in our surreal dream...


Wednesday, June 17, 2009


I'm not the type of person that can love someone easily
Nor finding a person that suit my heart
now this heart had been broken for the second time...
or I'm too selfish with my own self...
really sad...


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Kailangan Kita

The only Philippine song that had become my personal favorite for quite sometimes. Maybe because its fine tune.


Monday, June 8, 2009

hoo lee dey

...and so it was just a very fine peaceful semester break without any annusual thing to enjoy
it was a holiday I've been dreaming for during my hectic trimester...
I've told both my parent not to push me around during this period of time
coz I really wanna enjoy every bit of freedom after all the hard work that I'd put for final year project...
tho still I admit...feel kinda missed the studio and everyone in class

"u'll never miss the water until it's gone" - YunYi

My life won't be so lively after this...I guess


Friday, May 29, 2009

an end...

Exhibition officially close today and its been a long journey to all of us but we gain something that irreplaceable and extremely valuable, a strong bond of togetherness and friendship that cannot be shattered for eternity.

I love you guys dearly from the bottom of my heart.


Monday, May 25, 2009

Its time...

Hari yang penting telah tiba
Getaran dan degupan semakin tak terkawal
Rasa nak pitam...nak muntah
Benda penting yang perlu dibuat sudah dibereskan
Ada sedikit lagi kerja yang perlu di buat...
tapi tak tau sempat atau tidak
Ya Allah...kuatkanlah semangatku dan permudahkanlah segala perjalanan dan cabaran yg akan kutempuhi kelak. Amin

To all my bloggers friends...
wish me luck for my Final Year Project presentation and exhibition.


Sunday, May 24, 2009

Its the moment...

I felt like wanna puke right after opening my eyes in the morning while ago
My stomach does not feels right nor painful at the moment
Tried to have good night sleep last night but its a waste of effort
This thing just keep on bombarding my head
I know I can go through just like before
I know I'm not alone with this kind of situation
Struggle is everywhere
Everyone is

24 hours ++ more to go...
Ya Allah, please give me the strength and courage to go through all this obstacles.


Saturday, May 23, 2009


Tapi kenapa?
Mungkinkah sebab sudah singkat?
Atau sudah nak sampai masanya?


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Plan for tomorrow *DONE*

1) Wake up early morning and go to Alamanda. *less crowd...the better* - Done
2) Need to search for some antique/traditional carpet and another Kain batik Jawa for cover. - Done
3) Some traditonal tudung saji or tampi beras *the heck I dunno in English* - Not Yet
4) Eat proper food - lunch ever!!
5) Rush back to studio...continue setup (at least 80% before final setup on Friday) - Done
6) After Zohor going out to KL - Done
7) Find track ball, tikar mengkuang, etc- Done
8) Dunno what gonna happen the verge of depress implosion...grrrr... - Fuck


Tuesday, May 19, 2009


Presented to you Lahap-Lahap Club official member and not so official logo.*need to figure out better one*
Our motto is "Eat with passion while the food last".
Actually this club just merely an idea from Ren while we spamming each other in Facebook with some weird comment. I thought it was interesting and we sembang-sembang whether wanna make it "official" or not....more like suka-suka. We also decide to select presiden for the club...Sarah was the first choice coz she the most eligable candidate around...with a lot of passion. Since she turn it down countless time...I took the position dengan terpaksa...* still the shadow presiden eventho you're my vice...hehhee*. The other member also had their or job inside the club.

Shuun - Presiden / Food Gobler
Sarah - Rakyat Biasa *atas permintaan*
Ren - Food Runner
Min - Food Taster / Rakyat Biasa
Tasha - Food Consultant / Tukang Lenggok *confirm*

Activity of this club mostly cover the topic of makan and running around anywhere that possible to reach and search for best makan place and of course excellent food while skodeng people. Ohh...the food must be suit to our taste bud of course. Weird one won't go inside our list.


Monday, May 18, 2009

Where goes?

That was during internship.
And yesterday I check my weight in Alamanda, its 71kg

Where goes almost 10 kg of my body weight?
With all those thing I ate, not to mention A weight seem gradually decreased.


Jazz Bar

Imagining sitting at the corner of jazz bar watching live performance of this song while a pleasant looking waiter serves your drinks with remarkable grace and politeness. I would ask him to accompany me throughout the nocturnal night and listening the song again and again.


Saturday, May 16, 2009

J'Lostein - Of Mine



These scars of mine, they signify,
All that I've seen in life.
The turning tide, not coming by,
Taking too long to fly.

It's not always light, sometimes it's grey,
Chasing yesterday...


When one ocean is done, there's another one,
With higher waves.
When you're chasing the sun, to be stepped upon,
Then it goes away.
Has someone been lying when they said it's for the best?

No time to cry, no time to sigh,
Finding the meaning.
Seen it all, it hurts no more,
But still unforgiving.

Keep telling myself that all it does
Is make me strong...


For the best...
I think someone lied to me...


I think someone lied to me...
I think someone lied to me...

When I'm down on the ground, with no one around,
And I can't see.
When I get up to stand, pick myself up again,
Then maybe...

Maybe it's true that all these scars are for...
Maybe it's true that all these scars are for the best.

Copyrighted 2008 J'Lostein


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A thought of you

Kinda miss you J.


Sunday, May 10, 2009

The carriage last ride

Upon the reflection I've made to myself
Walking alone through the empty night
I told my conscious self
"I should stop playing that game"
Or in other word
There's no reason for it to go on
I know my feeling now

The horses will no longer need to run
The carriage had fulfill it purpose
I will put down my status as the lord
And the two maiden will be free

Thanks to both of you for tagging along playing these game for almost 2 years. :D
You know who you are~!!


Friday, May 8, 2009

Secret Admirer

We meet again while I'm still merely recover
Even just a second our eyes meet...
I know...
You're nervous
and so do I
I don't know what inside your mind...
what you've been thinking all this while
I can't keep on running away...
even though I'd decided its my only choice now

Maybe, when I have a stronger confident
I try to be honest...
Even though its just a smile


Thursday, May 7, 2009


But I just realize I can't
It was wrong

But I really love you, I really do...


Wednesday, May 6, 2009


It taste so sweet
I wonder why...


Monday, May 4, 2009

Love Confession

Is like strawberries dip in chocolate
or maybe maple syrup to suit your taste


Cool breeze

And so the cool breeze dancing across cyanic lake
Under perfect silver crescent moon
So the waltz begin


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Laughing is the best medicine

They do.
Showing line of bright white beautiful teeth...
Behind cupid bow shaped lips
And shrilling beautiful voice


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Silent ambient

And something hiding at the corner of prism cell
Playing alone under black cloak
Looking for darkness inside darkness
Searching shadow underneath shadow


Monday, April 27, 2009

Trijntje Oosterhuis - Fragile

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay

Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star, like tears from a star
On and on the rain will SEE
How fragile we are, how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star, like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are, how fragile we are
How fragile we are, how fragile we are

Artist(Band):Sting & Police


Purple Night Sky

Inspired to wrote this lyric from my previous blog entry. I didn't think about the melody or how it will sound like, but I can imagine its sound very slow, emotional, something like a very sad lullaby.

I watch the night sky above
From where this body lying still
My eyes blinking for once or twice
And it change to purple sky

I know what to believe and what to see
The mind transcend beyond imagination
The sky calling like whisper
I close my eyes and reach out my hand


The space curtain falls to my face
And I weep knowing I cannot touch it
The purple ray shine above my head
Illuminate the black dreamy night that once never lit

Dark pearl rains down from invisible sky
The stars beaming faint a sorrow light
My heart numb as I release the silent sigh
Walking down slowly to hinterland where darkness smile bright


I falls down to the ground countless times
Without guidance and without hope
The rain still falls like crying Elisa
When it will end, when it will stop

I almost lost to the blackness and silents
When the purple moon appear from the distant hill
Majestic cloud surrounding it create a huge sanctum
I ran forward as it give me strength and will

repeat chorus

I wake up from my sleep
Knowing it was an illusion
It was a dream
But every time I look out of the window
I know its real, its reality

by: Shuun


Sunday, April 26, 2009

Purple moon and piano key

My current wallpaper and also the song I played in my winamp playlist. I know I've empty desktop...boring, plus I hate placing to many shortcut that gonna crowded the background. And yes, I'm in a mood for slow instrumental music. Piano is the best.

Need to thanks the artist that created this wallpaper but I dunno who. This composition are among my fave by far. Very mysterious, dreamy, haunting and yet extremely breathtaking and enchanting scenery.

Fragile OST are among the best OST for current release game. I just love minimalist music tho some of it song involve few more instrument but majority just piano solo. It suit perfectly with my wallpaper. <3


Wednesday, April 22, 2009


I'm suppose to be sleeping right now at this particular time and mentally and physically condition. But end up browsing the net and blog hoping. Rushing for DM yesterday really sucked my life energy almost drained but luckily some miracle did happen. Alhamdulillah.
I just wanna sleep and rest...
No distraction or disturbance


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Ampun bang

Saper pakai minyak BioTrim dia raser panas. :D


Drops Second

The sky had answer my pleading
Pouring heaven drops and drench the burning earth
As I sitting near the edge of the table
Looking out of the window at the countless water particle
Creating a visible curtain wiping across the barren land
The dark sky tinted with orange gradient from the street lamp
Behind the dark silhouette of huge tree
My heart pounding slow
Cool air fill my chest alleviate the bane
Lullaby created when the wind blow in between the branches and leaf
Its was so wonderful...poignant
Hope it will last longer


Sunday, April 12, 2009


Will the sky keep on crying till tomorrow?
Will the rain continue to fall if I beg it to be?
Will my tears dry and replace by red liquid?
Will this wounded heart stabbed with sharper knife and won't bleed?


Dear Mr.Smile...

Why are you always smiling?
You should put some other kind of facial expression.

I want to
But I just couldn't throw away this smiling face
You know how funny my face when I put up my serious mask

But, at least try to toned it down
If you sad, try to at least show some sadness on your face

Why should I?
I know I'm sad, but I want other people to be happy.
If my smile can brighten up other people life
I'm gladly to smile even more
It would be enough to conceal my own sadness
In someway, I can get my satisfaction
Just by smiling


Thursday, April 9, 2009

On the bed...

I've been spending a lot of my time rolling, sitting, laying on my bed this 1-2 days. I take steady precaution if in case I had mental Panadol Cold and Flu always by my side in case needed to knock my self out. Getting tired of all this work, and even sitting in front of the comp just won't makes me anymore happier rather than adding up the pressure with some sort of depressing gamma ray from the screen. Stay alone in side this room may have its negative effect..and its already starting infecting my nerve. Maybe some dramatic thing happen will boost up my mood...or at least the reason for me not stay passive all the time. I'd Imagine an assassin suddenly knock down my door and pointing his gun at point blank end up shooting my shoulder and causing severe injuries. Or maybe a cute boy suddenly appear in front of my room asking for a night to stay...that will keep me accompany for a while. Nahh...I'm bluffing or imagining thing way to much.


Wednesday, April 8, 2009


Design for sketch book that gonna be sell for my Cyberpreneurship subject along with my friends.
Lazy sickness began to crawl inside my body, better finish up secondary work that gonna makes me spend the whole hour to finish it. DM put aside for a while...hehehe


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Extremely cute

Right...? :D


Thursday, April 2, 2009

Hutang TAG...

1. Do you think you're hot?
Ntah. But I like my butt and thigh.

2. Upload your favorite picture of you.

3. Why do you like that picture?
Sebab muker paling pailang...ngan rambut takleyh blah... *...trouble follow..into my door step...i dun want to know hooo....*

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
Last year...ngan member kat internship company.

5. The last song you listened to?
Helena Segara - Elle, Tu L'Aimes (Most of my song collection are European song...even the genre itself is something people my age won't listen...hahaha)

6. What are you doing now besides this?
Watching the comp screen...listen to mp3...what else?? Watching porn..??

7. What name would you prefer besides yours?
Tak tau lak. Namer "Shuun" skang dah melekat cam namer sendirik...XD. I like Ivan...namer mat saleh giteww..

People I tag:
1. Diena
2. Nab
3. Kak Jue
4. Reen
5. YunYi

8. Who is number 1?
Orang paling jahat penah aku jumper time Alpha but end up jadik close fren skang utk bertumbuk bertampar skang...hahaha!!!

9. Number 3 is having relationship with?
Saper lagi...cik abg dier la. Ihikk...~!!

10. Say something about number 5
Youngest, smartest, creative, happy go lucky, generous, honest, straightforward...etc *wink* XD

11. How about number 4?
Partner in crime when it come to *beep*

12. Who is number 2?
Cousin not related by blood but marriage... :D


Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Adam Lambert - Ring of Fire

Hot Hot Hot!!!
From all seven season of American Idol, this gonna be listed among the most amazing performance from any American Idol contestant.
Fantasia - Summertime
Jennifer Hudson - Weekend in New England
The best male vocalize in American Idol so far and also the most talented.
I want his voice, that cloth, that glove, that hair...I want Adam.


Wednesday, March 25, 2009

When your stomach upset

You become extremely upset too...
I am


Saturday, March 21, 2009

DragonBall Evolution

So its finally being release after that long awaited years. I watch the movie few hour ago in Alamanda along my close buddy. I'm aware of all those bad feedback and critics I read in the internet but it won't affected me much. Ok, to be honest I did criticized the film a bit after watching the trailer. But then, I realize something after countless time replay the trailer. This movie is different. Its not the original DragonBall. Its the new story that loosely base from the original idea of DragonBall. Its the story about Goku and mystical ball that will grant any wishes when all the seven ball being gather. I like the movie for what it is. This is not "The Great Adventure of Goku and Friends" like being portray in the original manga. Even the creator, Akira sensei said this gonna be different, not entirely but particularly in term of story development and character. You know how crowded the manga with character, even at the beginning. How do you expect to put every single character to live action. There will be ALOT of dialog and script, and one thing for sure, it will lost it main focus...entirely. One more thing, this film is family oriented. Not a movie for xtreme fans, but a movie for everyone to enjoy. When I walk into the cinema, I say to myself..."This is a new movie to me...nothing to do with original anime/manga. I will watch the movie as if I don't know the whole story and idea of dragonball". And its the end, I like the movie more then I could have. At least my RM10 worth of something, rather then spending it to some cholesterol fast food outlet.

Ok, some avid fans demanded that he knows all about DragonBall series and claim this film suck to the toilet bowl. Goku not supposed to be westerner, a student, like girl, wish to be normal, etc. This is what I have to say, first I know the original story also very well. Second this an adaptation, meaning the director and producer only extracted the idea of 7 DragonBall, character name and the villain while adding some twist in it. If they really use the original storyline/plot, then everything becoming more predictable and boring I might say. Seriously, if DragonBall series never existed, this movie gonna be a huge box-office phenomena. Fans put to much expectation that they loose it to their own belief.

Now about the casting:

Justin Chatwin as Goku
A job well done to him coz manage to portray the character fairly good. A very good looking Goku I might say. Most of the fans claim that Goku should be Asian. I say Why? Goku is not from earth, so the races that existed here won't applies to him. For me, he's an alien with the physical characteristic of human, plus the shape-shifting ability. Enough said. So this Goku is the one with human desire, able to love girl to be exact. Thats something nice to see for a change. At least I won't see the gluttonous Goku again. An aspect that makes the whole film very new.

James Marsters as Piccolo
From platinum white hair vampire to green evil wicked villain. The character doesn't have much development even with all those event flash back, but its still good.

Jamie Chung as Chi Chi
Sweet, sexy and talented martial artist. I know everyone falls for her after this movie, I'm one of them. This Chi Chi is different. She had aim, self control, motivation and courage contrast to over protective, love sick, queen control Chi Chi inside the manga.

Emmy Rossum as Bulma
Intelligent hot chicks with an attitude. I love it. And she really can fight. Not childish or cry baby. She still kept the original characteristic from the manga, to be rich,popular and successful. I won't argue with that. I think Emmy really suit this role.

Chow Yun-Fat as Master Roshi (Muten Roshi)
The closes character to the original manga eventho in term of appearance are totally different story. A younger version of Master Roshi is not so bad after all.

Joon Park as Yamcha
Totally different kind of Yamcha, I admit it. But at least he try his best to portray his role. Salute.

I won't do detail assessment for each character. XD

So how much I will rate this film, I could say, 4/5. I really appreciate the entertainment value and also the new story development. I know all those DIE HARD FANS gonna kick my ass but why must I say something else when the film itself gave me some joyful time. This brings me back when Final Fantasy The Spirit Within was release, everyone expect it to be like Final Fantasy series. But then most of them upset with the character, plot and world setting. The film became box office bomb. They even said its a disgraceful for FF series. Such a shame coz I thought the film was extremely brilliant...from character to storyline. Even Roger Ebert give 3.5/4 rating. What makes it even weirder, when Advent Children was release, many fans complain and not satisfied with the film production. Ok, I concluded that all these "fans always right" are all mindless people with an obsession that beyond the point of human sanity. Retard. Do they really understand all the hard work, time consuming, tension built up just to makes a film, importantly film base from adaptation? I'm very sure, if someone put a bunch of money, be it 100 mil or billion for this fans to create a good film...I bet no one can. No one dares. They just too afraid being shoot back by other stupid fans or end up producing a screw up pointless film. I can imagine another Ghost Rider...or even worse.

Many people will get enrage with my word but I will never took back what I already said. I have a very big ego...and I won't change my opinion easily. ;) Eat my words.

I wrote way too much. I end my word here. Need some sleep.

p.s: Yes...I hoping for another Dragonball Evolution sequel. Hehehe.


Thursday, March 19, 2009

I stand

I stand
No longer crawling
I look above
No longer look below
I start to walk
With my shadow as loyal companion
I humming my favorite lullaby
Spirit of bird chirping and fly sky high
From behind the mighty smoky white cloud
The ray of sun shine with vibrant golden color
Spread it pure light and warm across the field
Upon my face, body and soul
My shadow vanished and become an entity under my feet
I realize
My confident slowly materialized from the depth of my heart
Slowly and surely
Reveals it true form
A form that I recognize in an instant
A form
Of my own self
He smile, I smile
The form came closer
Kissing my forehead and whisper
"Never give a strong person"
I listen
"I will support and be with you forever, to guide"
I close my self...concentrate
"Because I love you, myself...more then anything else"
I gasp
I look up and watch the form face, my face...
He gave me the most encouraging smile
Slowly merging it self with my body
My form, myself...other self
had return to me
My Confident


Wednesday, March 18, 2009


I'm scared
I don't know where my confident go
It feels bad doing something that I don't really know whether I can complete it or not
Try to escape
But theres no route for me to choose
Try to forget
But at the back of my mind thing going worse
Try to work it out
But I don't know what am I suppose to do
Try and try and try...
And I keep falling and raise myself again, falling again...
I choose to crawl
Without looking above anymore


Sunday, March 15, 2009


of works...
I'm still breathing ok...
not nearly dead yet...
for a while
i guess...


Saturday, March 14, 2009

Soleil Soleil (New Single 2009)

I am extremely happy now. :D

*edit: Youtube had remove the video...copyright issues.


Friday, March 13, 2009

Dulu and Sekarang

Balik JB aritue dok bongkar sumer album lamer pastue dok gelak sengsorang...jadah tul. Hahaha. Man...some picture really freaks me out. Macam tak nak caya tue aku...tapi still kener caya gak. My god, I am so extremely dark. Dah macam org berjemur setahun...berkilat lak tue. Rambut pon tak boleh blah lak...setepek kat kepala cam kener lumur gam. My other sibling pon muker jenis kronik time dlm gambo nie. Nak wat senyum tp tambah lg kronik. Nie gambo tahun bile mmg tak baper from that popeye(OMGWTF...) shirt I wear...around 1998 maybe. Time UPSR gitu gaknyer. My big bro pon tgh gemuk sesangat time nie...serius. Yg lain cam cicak kobeng. I'm like 45kg...kulit ngan tulang doh. Time nie bleyh la pinggang 24-28 gitu.Hmpphh...skang trus 33. RIndu giler kat courters bungalow lamer nie. This haunted house byk sgt kenangan indah, tak berapa indah, separa indah, kelam kelam gitu indah, tak indah, horror indah, nightmare indah, and total nightmare. Sofa tue pon dah bagi kampung. Berparty jap orang jawa kat kampung nun saner.

See what happen now. Biler technology plastic surgery di introduce, makanyer kami telah menggunakan sebaik baiknya. So extreme makeover are actually true.

p.s: Entry nie just sesuker jer. Kepala tgh tak baper center. Tader niat nak kutuk adik beradik sebb kalau jumper mmg dok kutuk 24 jam. >8D


I love Casper back during my childhood time and even more love it after saw the film. Among my favourite top list film of all time. Chritina Ricci was so damn cute, and for a "normal" boy during that time, I really had big crush on her(and still). Devon Sawa use to be very charming(I admit it now, but I never saw that hotness before...I was 9 years old "normal" boy anyway that time) back then, and I just realize that he had this "prince-like and gentle" feature that makes all girl go head over heel for him, Mr.Heartthrob.

This got to be my favourite scene from the film. So sweet. Hehehe.


Saturday, March 7, 2009


So, I just realize I've been driving illegally for the past 2 month without even knowing my driving license already expired(1/1/2009). Consider my self lucky passing JPJ/Traffic police without any problem all this while. And it feels good. >:D


Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Happy Birthday Mom

Happy 48th Birthday Ibu.
Semoga dipanjangkan umur dah dimurahkan rezeki
Diberikan kesihatan dan kehidupan yang sempurna
Diberkati setiap kerja dan ibadahmu.
Terima kasih atas segala sokongan dan dorongan moral yang tak terbalas oleh wang ringgit.

You're the best mom and always be that I've ever had.

Anak mak katakan...sama-sama rabun.

An old picture I took from family album. Thats my big bro, and my mom is 24 years old during this pic was taken if not mistaken.


Friday, February 27, 2009

Let The Right One In

edit: I just watch the film yesterday. Truly a masterpiece and I love how minimal the usage of sound fx and the bgm always bring the right mood at the right scene.
5 Star

I want to watch this movie so bad that its hurts my gut. I think(99.9%...I put 0.01% for miracle) this movie will never be release in our local cinema, not because its extreme violence but how its marketed to our local audiences. We being bombard with too many "unintelligent" film from outside mostly Hollywood. May be its time for our people to really open their eyes. Its a very good, widely acclaimed by many movie viewer and even awarded numerous prizes in film festival as one of the best vampire movie ever produce in more then decade. I wonder if anyone wanna tag along with me watching this film. Just a reminder, its a children base movie BUT for adult audiences. Highly not recommended for kids. Same like Pans Labyrinth.

Here one of the movie brilliant soundtrack

Eli's Theme


Thursday, February 26, 2009

Reaching Blue Sky or Be Creative

I've been considering this option quite a while now.

Between Airlines Stewards and Multimedia Designer, which path should I choose after finish study?
Or I can be a crossover, Multimedia Stewardesigner....sound funny.


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

The feeling

I love the feeling waiting for public bus
I love the feeling taking ERL
I love the feeling wandering around KL Central
I love the feeling taking train to Plaza Rakyat
I love the feeling walking the pathway to Puduraya station
I love the feeling being surrounded by people waiting for their departing busses
I love the feeling sitting inside the express bus
I love the feeling of watching the evening sun during rainy day
I love the feeling watching night curtain falls down from its hanging
I love the feeling leaving the city toward the highway
I love the feeling watching the unmove dark sky from the bus window
I love the feeling of darkness of the highway
I love the feeling watching the forest silhouette along the highway
I love the feeling watching my empty hometown in the middle of the night
I love the feeling searching for night taxi at the terminal
I love the feeling knowing I will arrive home in few minute
I love the feeling having good late night supper with my parent and sibling
I love the feeling having good hot shower in my own bathroom
I love the feeling of laying on my own bed
I love the feeling hearing the sound from near urban forest
I love the feeling of having a goodnight sleep
I love all the feeling


Monday, February 23, 2009


Ok, kerja dah start banyak...
Time to get panic!!


Sunday, February 22, 2009


Penat dan letih...
Cukup-cukup la tu..


Wednesday, February 18, 2009


*This will be rather sensitive entry and personal contemplation that may or may not be accepted by individual*

I’ve been thinking a lot lately; in certain extend even asking my self whether I should post it up or not. So the main issue I’m going to talk here is our obligation as Muslim, our priority toward the religion and devotion to Allah SWT. The second Rukun Islam; 5 times prayer daily.

Every time my mom called, usually before she ends the conversation she always reminds me not to forget to pray. During my first few months in MMU, its kinda gives me a culture shock. Not because of how open the lifestyle, but the student lack ness of concern regarding their obligation as a Muslim really surprises me. I remember one time, I ask my ex-roommate whether wanna go Friday prayer together, and he just smile and continuing playing game like nobody business. Yes, I feel disrespect but what can I do, he is 3-4 years older than I am. Even older than my big brother. After sometimes, I realize that he never done it, not even once…and it’s scared out of me. Scare if it influences me. I try to endure as much as I can. The time passed and I meet a lot of people with the same kind of attitude. They don’t even care and some try to avoid the issues and not to miss the blow up. Why? Is it so wrong to ask whether you’ve done your prayer or not? Why must I receive those foul words, cursing and bad feedbacks fill with anger and hatred? Because of this bad experience, I start keeping everything to myself. And my prejudice beginning to built up inside my head.

“Macam ni ker budak-budak kat KL…?”

“Langsung tak ingat sembahyang…aper mak bapak diorang ajar kat rumah?”

My mind keeps on questioning this two thing over and over again eventhough I know I'm being biased.

“Orang yang tak mengingatkan orang lain untuk sembahyang akan sama-sama menanggung dosa”

I will never forget this word been spoken from my Ustaz. And aware how much sins I’ve had committed; for not reminding others.

“Alaa…dah tua nanti taubat la”

“Dosa masing-masing, kubur masing-masing, ko aper peduli…”

“Ko saper nak suruh aku sembahyang? Ko bukan mak bapak mampus la”

Does all this people never realize how upset listening to their words?

I admit, I’m not a pious or religious person but not bad either. I skip prayer sometimes, but I will never forget Qada’. That’s how I’ve been taught.

“Bukan skip selalu, sekali sekala won’t hurt right…?”

It will hurt…badly, because I know I have debt with Allah SWT.

How extremely bad a person was, if he/she never once forget to do the 5 daily prayers, I will hold my respect toward that person without any doubt. But how extremely good a person can be but failed to do his/her prayer, not even once, I won’t show any respect, at all. My only exception is their good deed, but I will never allow my self to see beyond that. It just an act for me as a human.

Why didn’t I voice this out before? Because I don’t have confident back then. Now I am old enough. Enough to make judgement and had my view to be heard and read.


Tuesday, February 17, 2009


Please don't disturb me during this time:-

Morning: 6.00 a.m - 7.00 a.m
Afternoon: 2.00 p.m - 3.00 p.m
Evening: 4.30 p.m - 5.30 p.m
Night: 7.00 p.m - 9.00 p.m

No outing after 12.00 a.m

This curfew will strictly apply today. (17.February.2009)

I'm going to be extremely strict and serious to my self regarding this curfew.

I won't entertain any "Why?" question for this sudden curfew in this entry. Anything should ask me in person.


Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Antara Dua

Dulunya aku tak pernah mengerti
Apa itu kumbang
Dan apa itu bunga
Hubungan antara dua
Sering menjadi perumpamaan lama

Pabila meningkat dewasa
Dikala ilmu itu dikejar memenuhi dada
Aku sedar dan penglihatan ku terbuka
Aku hidup di kelilingi oleh kumbang
11 tahun perjalanan hidupku begitu
Dimanakah bunga?

Bunga hanya sebahagian kecil
Tidak terdetikkah untuk mengenali?
Aku tak pernah punya jawapan
Sang kumbang yang buta terhadap bunga
Tapi benarkah begitu?

Aku adalah kumbang itu
Terbang mengikut aliran kumbang lain
Tiada hinggapnya di hamparan bunga
Tidak punya jawapan
Tapi diriku tak mahu menipu
Seekor kumbang lain menjadi perhatianku

Semakin dewasa ini
Semakin mekar bunga bercambah di sekitarku
Dari sebiji benih yang indah
Tapi sang kumbang sudah tiada terbang lagi
Merangkak di atas tanah
Di antara bunga
Membisu menahan pilu

Kumbang itu sudah menemui bunga

Aku redha
Aku punya pendirian
Aku tahu laluanku selami ini penuh dengan onak
Sayapku bergetar
Sekali lagi angin menjadi sahabat
Membawaku mengenali bunga - bunga yang indah
Kumbang ini mula menerima bunga
Tedetik seketika
Aku menipu diri sendiri?
Aku tak mengerti

Kini, kumbang itu masih berterbangan
Di antara hamparan bunga-bunga
Menunggu suatu hari
Haruman sekuntum bunga
Mampu membuka pintu hatinya

Perjalanan hidup tak semestinya harum sentiasa
Sang kumbang memahaminya
Mengetahui ianya tak pernah lurus

*Sorry saper yg raser nak muntah pas bacer. Jarang wat entry camnie...*


Tuesday, February 3, 2009


I can't find a way to have a good sleep
Tired my self and even stressed out my finger with drawing...lots of it
Still its not the subject to put me into deep sleep
Why? Is it because my nerve system become more reckless recently?
Its does look like it...but doesn't feels like it
Perfectly fine..or am I?
Or might be this some of the symptom of sleeping disorder?
Work more...sleep less?
Too tired even just to close these pity pair of eyeballs and swam into temporary nirvana?
Need my weekend
I want to be isolated in pitch black room
Just want to sleep


Monday, February 2, 2009


Doesn't had a goodnight sleep last night
I'd dream, many kind of dream... that I can't really figure out what
But I'm quite sure one of it I had blister and cuts all over my right hand palm
Painful...sure, and painless nonetheless...
I kept one waking searching for my hand phone looking at the clock
It still night, and night...and night...
Now its morning...
Its feels weird, or rather annoying...
I'm not so motivated to look forward on anything right now
Not classes, or subject or anything relate to it
Feel agitated...
Need my space, a dark empty room, soundless to be alone
Hearing my breathe and heartbeat
I'm not sure


Saturday, January 31, 2009

Start and End

Final Delta year, 3rd trimester, most important time for us Digital Media and others FCMers. Happy? Yeah...kinda. Eventho this is not my official semester coz I still got Photography need to be taken right after Trimester 3 end, it still feels sad, not to mention to increasing tension of FYP. So, probably this gonna the last trimester I will be able to meet my beloved Digital Media classmates, or should I say junior. Its been a wonderful time this 3 years of study in DM class with everyone. This gonna be our last time seeing each other, struggling, supporting each other...this final 4 month. Do our best this final trimester. DM-ians are the best and we gonna prove it.


Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Finger throbbing...

I had started my part-time job for 4 days now. Do it online coz the company only need scanned version high resolution of the artwork. So the progress, just send the first file this morning. 5 A4 with 10 images each equal to 50 images. The price range also fair enough. Need to do at least 150++(3 times submission per week) images per week to get my monthly payment target. Work my ass off tho. And I so gonna love this work...seriously. XD;;
Sambung keje lg. :D