Distant Ray

...and at the end of the day

the only thing that I ever wish for

just your happiness and life fulfillment

your dream and ambition

it may seem like my motivation

had been torn apart by my own decision

but looking at your smile

I saw a small glimmer of distant light

far over the horizon of my heart

painfully beautiful and calming

as I know it is not the end

of our relationship

it just transforming into something

that worth keeping for eternity

and you know it

Quit Trying

...and I've tried my best to fight those feeling

those longing, desire, tempting, even lust

it's an endless inner conflict and struggle

war that I know I can't win in the long run

how badly I wanted my feeling to reach you

yet this unrequited love are no more then self greed

self possession over something or someone

but heart is not something you can easily acquire

I've known that much

and it hurts way too much for oneself to bare

even at the verge of crumbling

please, enlighten me

gave me a sign, any sign, black or white

put my heart at ease